We Drink Tea

Tracey.

Honesty with you. Always. Because I care about you.

I don’t know why boys don’t like you. Honestly. Because I think you are beautiful, funny, talented, adorable, cute, sweet, caring, thoughtful, and wonderful.

I wish you were closer so we could get together more because I miss you so much.

I, too, get jealous of Brooke, sometimes. It isn’t fair.

I have gotten hit on before. I get hit on at work all the time, but its only because of my boobs. And I hate them. And the guys are creepy.

But, you are one of the most amazing people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and calling my friend. You make me feel useful and talented and beautiful, and that’s a hard task. I wish I could make you feel like I do when you post pictures of me. 

And, I hope you know, that you can call me whenever you need to. I love you and there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you.

Love,

Sarah

Don’t Worry Sarah

I understand your feelings and I’m sorry you have to feel that way.

I’m also having an emotional breakdown

except

mine is for no reason!

except that I have shitty self esteem

and

I like this guy

but he likes my friend

a lot

and

I can’t cry my feelings out

because I live in a dorm room

with thin walls

and

a roommate

fuck everything.

okay,

i’m so tired of feeling like its not okay to talk about what happened between me, grego, and brit. I know it was in the summer. I know he’s stupid. I know it’s a lot my fault too. BUT that doesn’t mean its not his fault too. It doesnt mean that he shouldnt know anything about me after being friends with me for years. doesnt mean he shouldnt have known that lying to me woud piss me off. doesnt mean he shouldnt have realized brit and i would find out. doesnt mean he shouldnt have realized it would kill my already low selfesteem. and im tired of people telling me to get over it. im afraid to date a guy right now. any guy i havent know for years makes me nervous. that isnt okay. and im lonely, okay. I AM DEPRESSED, SLEEP DEPRIVED, AND ALONE.

I have a lot of issues and they are all worse now.

Trace, I apologize for this. 

I love you.

I Don’t Really Know How to Phrase This

And by all means Sarah you can just skip right over this and ignore it entirely.

I’m just so sick of feeling completely and utterly unattractive all the time.

all the time

And if I was fat, or disfigured, or had giant buck teeth I would at least understand why, WHY guys won’t even look at me.

I don’t think I’m beautiful

But I don’t think I’m ugly

Stranger looking people than me get boyfriends all the time

but NO

I can’t even get a guy to look at me

let alone want to date me

It’s got to be my personality AND my looks

UGH.

I just want to feel pretty for once

ALSO

here is something I don’t understand

(warning I’m about to be a bitch)

(I mean a huge bitch)

WHY DO GUYS KEEP FALLING IN LOVE WITH BROOKE?

I’ve had at least five different guys (I wish that was an exaggeration) come up to me to talk about how much they like Brooke, or how hot Brooke is, or how they want to get with Brooke.

Why?

I don’t get it.

She’s very pretty, I will be the first to admit that

But really?

Why do you guys keep falling in love with Brooke? 

Finally told Brooke how I’ve been feeling

it didn’t end well

Sorry for this in advance Sarah. this isn’t aimed at you.

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? YOU’RE GONNA GET PREACHY ON TUMBLR? REALLY? WOW, THAT VAGUE COMMENT WAS REALLY SUBTLE AND GOT THE POINT ACROSS. FUCK YOU

Rant…

So I’m gonna rant on here a little because I realized that both Ian and Brooke follow my tumblr.

Ian….. Cute boy, what were you thinking?

Brooke… I know that it was not my fault that those lines got messed up on friday. Maybe if had fucking come to rehearsals or, hell, stayed for all of one, we’d have been better at it.  Acting with you was almost as bad as acting with Nathaniel last year.

Most of the time all i want to say to you is…

Suck it up and FUCK YOU!

We all have problems. I, of all people, know that.

Yours are not so important to the rest of us that we have time to take away from ours to solve all of yours.

I’m sorry for this Trace.

I love you.

You were beautiful and perfect in the show. My family thatought you were hilarious.